Wednesday, April 28, 2010

My life as a Burnt offering…

I’m reading “Passion and Purity” by Elizabeth Elliot and ran into a chapter that talks about bringing every emotion before the Lord so that He may shine through, our Pain, joy, longing, anxiety and such…

His word says in 2 Cor 10:5 “….we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” What sweetness there is to this verse…can you imagine? Every thought, being brought forth to the Lord, so that it may obey Him? So in a simple example it would be, my desire to be united with my loved ones RIGHT NOW will be brought to Jesus and obey His will for me to serve him as a single woman alone for the season He’s placed me in. My longing will obey the will of God for me to preserver and produce Character and fruit. Isn’t this beautiful?

My heart jumps at the thought of God being ever present in those moments that seem so low and so lonely. To know that’s EXACTLY where he wants me so that he may speak to me…love me and let me know HIM the lover of my soul. Hosea 2:14 is so real in my life right now....

"Israel, I, the LORD,

will lure you into the desert

and speak gently to you.

I will return your vineyards,

and then Trouble Valley will become Hopeful Valley.

You will say " Yes" to me

as you did in your youth,

when leaving Egypt.

There is a joy I can’t express in my heart right now, a joy that can only come from above, that proves to me that God is working and is active in my heart. That no matter how hard things seem in my life and when people look in from the outside and wonder how in the world does she live like this, deep down in my heart there is a complete rest in the Lord because I know he is sovereign and that He is in control of my life.

I often tell my friends…God is not concerned about the destination but the journey that He takes us in (I'm sure I heard it from somewhere). Unless we’re able to follow Him with complete obedience, the destination makes no sense or would add any value to our lives when we get there. God refines us through the journey, by giving us manna when we’re hungry and teaching us that He is enough. By giving us water out of dry stones when we’re thirsty and showing us He is the Spring of life. By comforting us when we are tired and renewing our strength and by being our compass when we lose our way. When we get to the destination, all we have left to do is praise Him in awe for the impossible journey that He made possible. The destination...well it will be a blessing added to the REAL DEAL, KNOWING HIM!

God is concerned about His children worshiping Him and not idols. May our idols be made as nothing in our hearts because of the purifying journey He takes us in and may we be obedient enough to bring our lives as burnt offering.

LOVE knowing you my savior....
Mekdi

Monday, April 19, 2010

When all You NEED is Him!!

Have you ever came to a point in your life where no matter how hard you try, you just can't seem to see the positive... I mean you're not a negative person, you love and trust God and deep down in your heart know that the Lord is your strength. BUT, there have been so many hard situations that have bombarded your life and you're swamped, you just can't get out of it. No matter how many scriptures you quote and squeeze your eyes shut and PRAY...it seems like God has chosen silence.

It's hard, it's very hard to not have answers for your painful circumstances and it makes you wonder, why God? What's the possible good out come from this painful situation, it HURTS God, my heart aches in pain and I soooooooo need your peace. Then, you're forced to fall on your face, and ask God for peace and joy and meaning in life... You turn to him instead of your loved ones because none of their solutions will ever make it ok or better or is a lasting solution.

My Pastor told an amazing analogy yesterday during service, he was preaching James 1st and about persevering through trials. He gave an example of how we use a for to check if something is cooked or not...we poke through and check, he said if we are cooked / dead for Sin and alive for Christ, we won't bleed as the fork/trials go through us. But if we do bleed, then God will leave us on the fire till we are well cooked and the fork going through us won't make us bleed/ nothing of our fleshly desire will come out.

This totally stuck with me, and got me out of my self focused why me attitude? I must say...the word of God is sooooo powerful when you pray through it. Praying through James 1 brought a sense to my situation and God started to speak, move so powerfully and completely heal my heart. Oh how I love and thank the lover of my soul for choosing me as his vessel to go through many trials and be molded to imitate the image of Christ.

James 1:2-8 "2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does."

It's not about me, it's about HIM! Jesus Christ who gave it all that I may have eternal life.

Love you my father,
Mekdes