(Ephesians 3:14-19 ESV)
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
(Ephesians 3:14-19 ESV)
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
When I read this scripture this morning, my heart stopped, it's like a new revelation, yes I do good because my goal is to please Him who died for me. I am in full time ministry because nothing brings me joy more than seeing people come to know Christ, or praying for the Lost in great anticipation of God's answer to my prayers and having the honor of at times being an answer to others prayers. The way we feel at Home is by doing God's work in this temporary world. Pursuing to please the one we long to be with.
When I was younger, my mom used to talk about how much she longs for Christ's return, and I would secretly hope it wouldn't be soon. First, because I was afraid of all the commotion that would come about before His return but the biggest fear I had was of not having the opportunity to grow up and live out all my dreams. I wanted to grow up and be a woman that would change the world, I had dreams and anticipations of being all I am and then Christ can come, after I fulfill my desires, reach my goals, achieved my success.
As a grown woman, I look back and think of how foolish my desires were. They were all self centered and self serving. See, I didn't long for my savior because I didn't understand what I was saved from. I thought I was a good person who is good enough to consider God as my God and go to church on Sundays and pray for my family occasionally. Life was about me, what I can do for others, I thought "I had the world on a string and the sting around my finger". I was the end to everything and was completely blinded to the massive grace of God & the love that compelled him to send His one and only Son to die for my sin.
Sin, what is sin? I would have asked, sin for me was the stuff bad kids did, not me. I was blinded by my "good works" that stemmed from a desire to prove my righteousness to myself and others around me watching. I had no understanding that what I was doing was worshiping myself and my flesh, I didn't know that the belief that the world revolved around me was SIN itself. Oh how I pray the eyes of our hearts be opened each and everyday to acknowledge what type of sinners we are so we may experience the fullness of God's grace. To know I have nothing good of myself and it's the most freeing knowledge.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
I want it in theory but in reality, I don't like it. It goes against everything my flesh desires, it goes against everything I was trained or "educated" to live my life. It's HARD and could make one feel helpless and powerless. If God wants us to surrender everything that we could ever want to do for ourselves to him, how do we embrace it without fighting it, how do we enjoy surrender? I DON'T KNOW how to do it in my own strength, but I pray that the Lord would help me do it in his spirit. His word says "not by might, not by power but by my spirit says the Lord."Zech 4:6
I resist surrender because it's a path of the unknown, it's a path that follws God's day to day call in my life but doesn't guarantee anything other than eternal life with Christ. You may say, that's amazing, I want that but think again...that means not having a say in where you live, who you spend your time with, how you spend your time, how you spend your money, when you're going to move or how long you'll stay at your old boring and uneventful job or neighborhood. It's a call to die to your flesh, your desires, any inkling of your thoughts and living it for HIM. He gets to decide what you do, where you go, even what you eat. You are choosing to be a servent better yet, a slave of Jesus Christ and it HURTS your flesh but it HEALS your soul. It sobers up your mind and opens the eyes of your heart, you start looking to the needs of others than yours only and it is a greater calling because it satisfies your soul and it touches the heart of God.
Whether it's to God or our selfish desires, we submit to something...I chose to submit to his will and call in my life even though it's HARD. What do you choose?
Romans 6:5-11 "...For if we have become united with Him in the likeness of His death, certainly we shall also be in the likeness of His resurrection, knowing this, that our old self was crucified with Him, in order that our body of sin might be done away with, so that we would no longer be slaves to sin; for he who has died is freed from sin. Now if we have died with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with Him, knowing that Christ, having been raised from the dead, is never to die again; death no longer is master over Him. For the death that He died, He died to sin once for all; but the life that He lives, He lives to God. Even so consider yourselves to be dead to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus."
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
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Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Things I love,
Pink flowers (roses & Gerber daises)
Wake up to birds chirping & sunlight through my window
The beach, Mountains & Trees…Hawaii
To imagine God’s gentle and loving hands over me.
Reading about a story of a girl (who ever, where ever, when ever, but I love to imagine I’m that girl on a journey)
Music that tells a story…about God, life, emotions…something that has meaning
My family….I love them to pieces, all of them, my immediate family, my aunts and uncles, my cousins, almost about 50 of them. Love them like crazy.
My best friend in the whole world and love of my life Ermiye...He's a gift from heaven and the joy of my heart.
Ethiopia…I love Ethiopia because I know I’m unique in the way I think and live my life because of my life experience there. What a beautiful place. Friends, I advise you to visit ;)
I love to learn…new things…activities, I love knowing how people think, why they chose to do the things they do.
I love to write there for, I love Journals…I think I’m a collector of journals because I have quite a few that I’ve accumulated over the years. If I go to Barnes and Nobel I’m bound to pick one up because being in that atmosphere makes me want to write but since I don’t carry around my journal I’ll just buy one J
I express myself through writing but I always forget to carry a small journal with me so you’ll find some kind of writing in my purse, back pack, pocket or wallet.
I love to write to God, most of my prayers are written because that’s how I connect to the Lord.
My friends…Oh my, they’re an extension of my family. You know who you are ;) I think I’m the most blessed person when it comes to having so many quality people in my life, quality meaning people who choose to live for the Lord and inspire others to do the same. It’s ridiculous how many of those I have in my life.
I want to write a book, don’t ask me about what cuz I have so many things /topics in mind. But I hope you’ll buy my book(s) one day ;)
My dream is to go back home and help people believe in themselves. I want to see the gentle hands of Jesus touch the poor and the weak, satisfy their spiritual hunger as well as their physical needs which is apparent.
I know God has a unique plan in my life and sometimes I feel lonely to carry it alone but then I remember what Dr. K told me, Eagles soar alone for a long time ;) and it encourages me to be an eagle in God’s kingdom.